Life goes on
was reading my blogs again... ashamed at the lack of writing organisation skills. Well, what more to expect from aC6 Lang 1 student. Furthermore, i was confused & at a loss of speech back then, thus I redirected the frustration to be vented on this remote site. It works! no wonders though.
Not been blogging, cus nothing interesting and worth writing. Been hanging around alot with Kat whenever I'm free. But she's attached now. Kinda hate myself for being so busy, busy with work. Yet not saving a cent. Fuck! WHere did all the cold hard cash go to..??
Samantha called me last nite, tot she wanted to meet me (well, she did suggest) but why do I have the feeling that her main objective is to let me know that she's with Kay??? Hmm.. moreover, mention that Kay held her hand and almost got into a fight with Marcus.. (plain jealousy, lame) Am I green? That she has the guys? Whereas me still... Well, Kay is a nice guy. Hope they can turn out well. though it wil be awkward. Kinda miss the rollerblading lesson... (shit!! i still donno how to blade!!!)
Tam smsed me... Mixed feelings.. Now that I noe he does read my blogs... should I evade some topics?? Welll, this reminded me of one of Sep Xiaxue blogs in Archive.. Her about not being herself after she gains more readers... and her feeling cooped. She let herself out. Fuck what everyone else thinks about her.. Cocky, arrogant - Yes, Attitude - Yes, Entertaining - Excellent.. Most imptly, She is happy abt it. That's her blog! Enough abt her. Back to Tam.
(Even if u r reading, i would not falter and twist my thoughts n words to accomodate u. =) Happy reading)
I was shocked to see the sender name. N "Don't drink too much, it's bad for health" Less than ten words which took less than a sec to be read and maybe 3 secs for my heart to digest... all that i have tried to do in the past month are ruined... And only on thurs nite have I Claimed to Tessa N Kat that.... I dont feel a thing anymore... ( at least now I noe there are shreds of humanity left in me.) Not knowin' what to reply, i din rply aft he told me tt he read my blogs.. Well I did take to drinking, but also due to work requirement. 'I'm Fine', I thought, "But it will b such a happy ending if we are together..." Lol. Shucks!! My Lord noes me well. If I am given something too easily, I wun give a damn abt it. Gifts mz be accompanied by obstacles, hindrance and impossibilities, then would we give a second glance. All beings take things for granted! INCLUDING U! Freak.
Great! I am being a loser. Scold me, scorn me, come please spit at me "no, not my face, I need it for living" Not wanting to be the usual, stereotypical vain, naive, no brainer Princess, Gotta act tough.. I mean be tough. Jus let go. Who can? Give me a tip or 2.
Having bearing the burden of the family for so long, encountering all the weirdos in the world e.g. persistent pest / D.O.Ms deprived of sex and the Old WomEn whO has nothing better to do and spent all the time venting their frustration n cooped up grumbles on a newly turned adult... To hell with u. Life is never smooth sailing, I noe. But why make things extra difficult for me.. I want a simple life with an astonishingly charismatic guy whom I fancy, no worries about lodging, transport, work n luxurious leisure activities... (How i envy Lionel! High Pay job, he likes his job. Goes for diving trips every month... Cool! ) ANyway!!!! I m fine. Life's a bitch! Just Bitch abT it, and it goes on!!!
ALl the best Everybody! N to those who have suicidal thoughts, think twice. Do not call anybody to tell them u want to do it. Just do it! Action speaks louder than words. Also, if you informed and yet still alive, it's a breach of trust.
Peace be with me.
PS: Song to recommend: Why'd u lie to me by Anastacia. Cool Song
Slut
Not been blogging, cus nothing interesting and worth writing. Been hanging around alot with Kat whenever I'm free. But she's attached now. Kinda hate myself for being so busy, busy with work. Yet not saving a cent. Fuck! WHere did all the cold hard cash go to..??
Samantha called me last nite, tot she wanted to meet me (well, she did suggest) but why do I have the feeling that her main objective is to let me know that she's with Kay??? Hmm.. moreover, mention that Kay held her hand and almost got into a fight with Marcus.. (plain jealousy, lame) Am I green? That she has the guys? Whereas me still... Well, Kay is a nice guy. Hope they can turn out well. though it wil be awkward. Kinda miss the rollerblading lesson... (shit!! i still donno how to blade!!!)
Tam smsed me... Mixed feelings.. Now that I noe he does read my blogs... should I evade some topics?? Welll, this reminded me of one of Sep Xiaxue blogs in Archive.. Her about not being herself after she gains more readers... and her feeling cooped. She let herself out. Fuck what everyone else thinks about her.. Cocky, arrogant - Yes, Attitude - Yes, Entertaining - Excellent.. Most imptly, She is happy abt it. That's her blog! Enough abt her. Back to Tam.
(Even if u r reading, i would not falter and twist my thoughts n words to accomodate u. =) Happy reading)
I was shocked to see the sender name. N "Don't drink too much, it's bad for health" Less than ten words which took less than a sec to be read and maybe 3 secs for my heart to digest... all that i have tried to do in the past month are ruined... And only on thurs nite have I Claimed to Tessa N Kat that.... I dont feel a thing anymore... ( at least now I noe there are shreds of humanity left in me.) Not knowin' what to reply, i din rply aft he told me tt he read my blogs.. Well I did take to drinking, but also due to work requirement. 'I'm Fine', I thought, "But it will b such a happy ending if we are together..." Lol. Shucks!! My Lord noes me well. If I am given something too easily, I wun give a damn abt it. Gifts mz be accompanied by obstacles, hindrance and impossibilities, then would we give a second glance. All beings take things for granted! INCLUDING U! Freak.
Great! I am being a loser. Scold me, scorn me, come please spit at me "no, not my face, I need it for living" Not wanting to be the usual, stereotypical vain, naive, no brainer Princess, Gotta act tough.. I mean be tough. Jus let go. Who can? Give me a tip or 2.
Having bearing the burden of the family for so long, encountering all the weirdos in the world e.g. persistent pest / D.O.Ms deprived of sex and the Old WomEn whO has nothing better to do and spent all the time venting their frustration n cooped up grumbles on a newly turned adult... To hell with u. Life is never smooth sailing, I noe. But why make things extra difficult for me.. I want a simple life with an astonishingly charismatic guy whom I fancy, no worries about lodging, transport, work n luxurious leisure activities... (How i envy Lionel! High Pay job, he likes his job. Goes for diving trips every month... Cool! ) ANyway!!!! I m fine. Life's a bitch! Just Bitch abT it, and it goes on!!!
ALl the best Everybody! N to those who have suicidal thoughts, think twice. Do not call anybody to tell them u want to do it. Just do it! Action speaks louder than words. Also, if you informed and yet still alive, it's a breach of trust.
Peace be with me.
PS: Song to recommend: Why'd u lie to me by Anastacia. Cool Song
Slut
posted by terasey at 10/23/2004 02:34:00 pm
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