seclusion

its been 5 years since the loss.

suddenly someone raked up ur name n there it stayed, lingering in my head. no matter whad i did, i could not flush it out... and the more i cared about its presence, the deeper it gets in. Finally, i did a google search on ur name. and viola, i found ur facebook... haha. its easy ar~ coulda been easier as we have so many mutual friends...

i tried to keeep u out of my life for so long whilst u are attached to her.

i tried to keep u clear.

i tried to forget u.

i tried.

and now, its haunting once again.

nothing to prove...

but the haunt brought me back to this blog... this blog that i so badly wants to close and yet... still writing in it after few years.

someone dear told me... "a scar will always be a scar. dun touch it and its not there.. once u touch, the pain returns...."