What's Love...
Maybe I have been left single for too long... Maybe I am not as independent as I make myself out to be... Maybe I am weak... Maybe I am not the New Age Woman... Maybe... Maybe...Maybe I am just a girl...
Hated myself for being troubled by affairs of the heart... worse still, troubled by complex details and ties and matters that are of no benefits to me... I am losing in this game.. no matter how I play it.. No chances of winning. I have been stupid to think that the old saying should work in this game of the new century adolescents, sincerity works... my foot! Nothing helps! Don't ever believe in fair play.. Nothing of the sort. If life is fair... U n I wun be looking at this cold hard monitor.. trying to know more about pp's life.. Be envious of their happiness and Sneer at their downs.. like this blog.
Nobody's around to lend me his chest when i need to lean.. Nobody to hug me when I am feeling empty n intimidated...Nobody's arm to hold when I am walking down the street, leisurely... TO rush to nobody when he's drunk n bored. Once in awhile, to have Nobody to kiss me goodnite.. Having sleepless nites about Nobody....
WHy do I submit myself to such treatment... Initially I thought this is fair to both, nothing to lose. As I started out with nothing... but gosh, I forgot I am a woman.. A Woman in need of love.. HAHA.. Succumbing to anyone who comes along and drops her a string of concern n time..but she never realise that this string will never be strong to take her weight.. this string will never carry her along with him...for when he cannot take the load & burden of commitment, he will let go of the string.. drop her... He's not cruel. this has been made known to the woman right from the start; For, if he ever meant to take her along with him all his life, he will carry her on his back..... Pathetic...
Whilst in order to stay on the string for as long as one can, she has to please him... struggles to walk in his stride, put on a cool front, fakes the oblivions and fakes disregard for all those nitty gritty stuff.. whereas he's no idea that it's those nitty gritty stuff n actions that sweetens a relationship, that will touch a woman's heart...She has to pass off disapproving remarks for those stereotypical words n phrases, dismissing them as lame... but itz all this mushy & "conventional" dialogues that brings you back to the classic dating scenes as always shown on screens & in fairytale.. Who doesn't want a knight in shining armour, who doesn't want a night under the millions of star, on a vast field... who doesn't want to be princess...who doesn't like these sweet phrases n words that strengthens n bonds two person closer as days goes by.. But We lack those, thus after 6 mths... we are still - good friends...
Be it, For if it is any other time, I would be living better off than now...
Fuck Nobody...
Love,
The Woman pulling the string
Hated myself for being troubled by affairs of the heart... worse still, troubled by complex details and ties and matters that are of no benefits to me... I am losing in this game.. no matter how I play it.. No chances of winning. I have been stupid to think that the old saying should work in this game of the new century adolescents, sincerity works... my foot! Nothing helps! Don't ever believe in fair play.. Nothing of the sort. If life is fair... U n I wun be looking at this cold hard monitor.. trying to know more about pp's life.. Be envious of their happiness and Sneer at their downs.. like this blog.
Nobody's around to lend me his chest when i need to lean.. Nobody to hug me when I am feeling empty n intimidated...Nobody's arm to hold when I am walking down the street, leisurely... TO rush to nobody when he's drunk n bored. Once in awhile, to have Nobody to kiss me goodnite.. Having sleepless nites about Nobody....
WHy do I submit myself to such treatment... Initially I thought this is fair to both, nothing to lose. As I started out with nothing... but gosh, I forgot I am a woman.. A Woman in need of love.. HAHA.. Succumbing to anyone who comes along and drops her a string of concern n time..but she never realise that this string will never be strong to take her weight.. this string will never carry her along with him...for when he cannot take the load & burden of commitment, he will let go of the string.. drop her... He's not cruel. this has been made known to the woman right from the start; For, if he ever meant to take her along with him all his life, he will carry her on his back..... Pathetic...
Whilst in order to stay on the string for as long as one can, she has to please him... struggles to walk in his stride, put on a cool front, fakes the oblivions and fakes disregard for all those nitty gritty stuff.. whereas he's no idea that it's those nitty gritty stuff n actions that sweetens a relationship, that will touch a woman's heart...She has to pass off disapproving remarks for those stereotypical words n phrases, dismissing them as lame... but itz all this mushy & "conventional" dialogues that brings you back to the classic dating scenes as always shown on screens & in fairytale.. Who doesn't want a knight in shining armour, who doesn't want a night under the millions of star, on a vast field... who doesn't want to be princess...who doesn't like these sweet phrases n words that strengthens n bonds two person closer as days goes by.. But We lack those, thus after 6 mths... we are still - good friends...
Be it, For if it is any other time, I would be living better off than now...
Fuck Nobody...
Love,
The Woman pulling the string
posted by terasey at 9/20/2004 08:24:00 pm
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