I m 21 already but I m not happy
Beaming with excitement, unable to contain the joy.. Impatient while anticipating the day to come... That's me for the past weeks esp so for the past days... And that Big Day finally come.
I had alot of plans for my this year bdae. I don't deny that I'm someone who loves attention and crowds, but I am even more for the idea of having all ur frens to be wif u on ur special day. Yet, nothing is smooth sailing in this world, when I am all alone trying to plan. Eve has her sister and brother-in-law to get the Chevron's chalet last year and they paid for it. Kat's chalet is in January and it seems that her sis has got it booked as well. But.. me... gotta do it all by myself and with my own hard earned cash..
Was in love with the Holiday Chalet @ Sentosa but it was fully booked when i called. Thought of holding a buffet cum bbq @ Safra Yishun or OCC.. Went to check for the facilities and had a great idea of "Poolside Bday party!" but.. *GASP*GOSH*WOW*HAIZ*.... its 2400 for a party of 50... well poolside party still belongs to the rich gals.
Anyway, after much discussions with my mum and kat & lionel... finally i settled for buffet @ my place. Not a bad idea as i could also call my relatives. As mentioned above, nothing is smooth for me... Paternal side, one of my cousins had blinded one of her eyes thus she may be still grieving. I feel for her. Another cousin getting married on the 15 Sep 04. Hmm according to traditions and superstition, she's not supposed to attend any red / white festivals now to avoid "clash". Maternal side, one of my mahjong khaki, my eldest cousin need to serve the 49 days of her father-in-law, thus cannot come, as this clashes too... alamak.. so many pp dun wanna come...
Anyway the buffet is set on 11 Sep 6pm, with the help of kat & the brochure. Sweet darling, offered to help me cook in case not enough food. I m growing dependent on her.
SMSed all my frens, posted in friendster & multiply... 1 way is to announce the coming of my 21st bdae to my frens, another is that i really dun mind to have online buddies to come. Use this opportunity to meet up. Else i m usually busy @ work. Hmm.. dun think many will come as most are not confirmed. Haiz... Am i that pesty? Nobody likes me???
As the days creeped nearer, i discovered that a lot of pp celebrating bday this week, esp on 11 Sep. Or they will be having wedding dinners... more absentees....
Lester, is going to miss my bdae.. dun think he ever miss one, since i knew him. Loyal buddy Funny guy too.. hmm.. Glad to see he is happy with his joey... (spell right?)
Carina & Tessa & Eve will be here for sure.. these 3 have a special place in my heart.. so special that i can be away from them for long period of time but when i contact them once in a blue moon, that feeling that surges up is still strong and warm..
Lionel, Kat, & Sam will be here too.. great Pals. Been around me when i need their company. Our friendship is growing stronger and firmer. It will be perfect if plus more trust n luck in our life.
The YTSS guys will be here too.. Surprised that after so long, i am actually more in contact with Aladdin & Lihao than Jiebin & SIhao... haiz.. time changes situations. guanzhong, andy sim, zhiyong etc are still here.. those gone are hanxiang....vivian....wilson....youliang....
hmm.. I will just wait for that day to arrive.. told myself not to harbour too much hopes.. be pleased that those above are coming. Others who do come are bonus. Shows that i m not being ostracized after all....
PS: but someone is sailing and wun be coming... was very sad when i heard about the 3 months trip... luckily itz not real..
Peace out again...
Tracey
I had alot of plans for my this year bdae. I don't deny that I'm someone who loves attention and crowds, but I am even more for the idea of having all ur frens to be wif u on ur special day. Yet, nothing is smooth sailing in this world, when I am all alone trying to plan. Eve has her sister and brother-in-law to get the Chevron's chalet last year and they paid for it. Kat's chalet is in January and it seems that her sis has got it booked as well. But.. me... gotta do it all by myself and with my own hard earned cash..
Was in love with the Holiday Chalet @ Sentosa but it was fully booked when i called. Thought of holding a buffet cum bbq @ Safra Yishun or OCC.. Went to check for the facilities and had a great idea of "Poolside Bday party!" but.. *GASP*GOSH*WOW*HAIZ*.... its 2400 for a party of 50... well poolside party still belongs to the rich gals.
Anyway, after much discussions with my mum and kat & lionel... finally i settled for buffet @ my place. Not a bad idea as i could also call my relatives. As mentioned above, nothing is smooth for me... Paternal side, one of my cousins had blinded one of her eyes thus she may be still grieving. I feel for her. Another cousin getting married on the 15 Sep 04. Hmm according to traditions and superstition, she's not supposed to attend any red / white festivals now to avoid "clash". Maternal side, one of my mahjong khaki, my eldest cousin need to serve the 49 days of her father-in-law, thus cannot come, as this clashes too... alamak.. so many pp dun wanna come...
Anyway the buffet is set on 11 Sep 6pm, with the help of kat & the brochure. Sweet darling, offered to help me cook in case not enough food. I m growing dependent on her.
SMSed all my frens, posted in friendster & multiply... 1 way is to announce the coming of my 21st bdae to my frens, another is that i really dun mind to have online buddies to come. Use this opportunity to meet up. Else i m usually busy @ work. Hmm.. dun think many will come as most are not confirmed. Haiz... Am i that pesty? Nobody likes me???
As the days creeped nearer, i discovered that a lot of pp celebrating bday this week, esp on 11 Sep. Or they will be having wedding dinners... more absentees....
Lester, is going to miss my bdae.. dun think he ever miss one, since i knew him. Loyal buddy Funny guy too.. hmm.. Glad to see he is happy with his joey... (spell right?)
Carina & Tessa & Eve will be here for sure.. these 3 have a special place in my heart.. so special that i can be away from them for long period of time but when i contact them once in a blue moon, that feeling that surges up is still strong and warm..
Lionel, Kat, & Sam will be here too.. great Pals. Been around me when i need their company. Our friendship is growing stronger and firmer. It will be perfect if plus more trust n luck in our life.
The YTSS guys will be here too.. Surprised that after so long, i am actually more in contact with Aladdin & Lihao than Jiebin & SIhao... haiz.. time changes situations. guanzhong, andy sim, zhiyong etc are still here.. those gone are hanxiang....vivian....wilson....youliang....
hmm.. I will just wait for that day to arrive.. told myself not to harbour too much hopes.. be pleased that those above are coming. Others who do come are bonus. Shows that i m not being ostracized after all....
PS: but someone is sailing and wun be coming... was very sad when i heard about the 3 months trip... luckily itz not real..
Peace out again...
Tracey
posted by terasey at 9/09/2004 11:56:00 am
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